Seconds

Seconds, 
I count slowly, the time is flowing away,
I am empty again.
I count the time, but it is not moving and this room is empty again. I see you looking at me, and the time stops,
I forgot to breath and the time is breaking down.
Slowly we kiss, your skin is like water in my hands, while your lips are shinning as stars.
I am melting, slowly, 
while I am covering you with my smell and then we don t see more each other because we are the same. But the time is running again and you disappear leaving a sky without starts,
empty again. Counting the time, I will take a breath,
because I want to have enough air to never leave you again.

She

Only when you are alone you get it. Only then you understand, and only then it matters.

So make me high, give me a kiss. I want to feel alive, although just for tonight, just before I will leave this place. “Love me two times, one for today and one for tomorrow”.

Because it`s enough. And you know it as good as I. Lost in the moment, lost in the color, lost. Completely lost. Till there is just that.

She was sitting with book in her hands, nothing more, just an old book in front of her shinny smile. I am getting lost, but you are going away like spinning plates. I am gonna follow you in the deepest ocean with weird fish, nothing more.

When I open my eyes, she is not there anymore. Probably I have been dreaming too much. I closed my eyes just before she left. I was lost in the moment. Now I am paying for it.

I am walking home. I am lonely again all over this silent city. I am walking slowly, because I don’t want to lose your picture. I am going to hold you all night long, silently hoping I will be able to find you tomorrow morning in my mind again and again. 

L. and K.

Calling

Two-shadowed men are roaming the streets.

Black streets, grey clouds and a new pocket of cigarettes – nothing more, nothings less.

You should follow them, but then again no, you don’t want to know, because they don’t care.

Do you care? A bar is calling for them. Red light and the smell of cheap alcohol, bar full with people that you don’t know. Do you care?

Probably, not, you are one of them. One of those who is following right beside the shadows. You lay there and then in an instance you become nothing.

How many stupid words do you have to use before you can have fun? Give me another beer because tonight I don’t want anything else besides following those men. Just follow my name.

At the same time you now that at the exact moment when they will whisper your name, the game will end and all that will be left – just cheap bar, cheap conversations, cheap smiles, and one meaningless man.

Count your time. The difference between the first and the second is so big that you want to drown in your feelings.

There is a girl. You are falling in love with her, but you need to pee. And when you are finished, she is already gone, and you order yet another beer.

Why is everything so grey?

The morning is calling you, the sun is coming out slowly. You step back, your mind is somewhere else. There is no more men to follow – just you and the empty pocket of cigarettes.

And you are done.

L and K.

Running away

One cat, one dog, one garden, the smell of the old city, and you.

Different things, different faces, palms, claws, and you – caught in the moment. Counting

them, until one jumps out.

There is a kid in front of me. He is smiling and I am happy once again. The mother is asking for a picture, but he says: “No!” He doesn’t know what the happiness is. He said no, and I am happy again.

Because I am just like him. I also don’t know it, but God believe me, I want to. We are the same, and in one crazy moment I wish I was the kid and the woman was my mother, and everything would be different. I would have said yes, I would have smiled, hugged her and just enjoyed it. But it`s not like that and the cat is laughing now.

The father is running away, and the kid is following him. But I am still waiting for you. Waiting for my promised happiness. Could you bring some with you? One cat, one dog, one garden, the smell of the old city, and your happiness.

Everything is falling apart. But I want it, I want that.

I should follow them, I should stay with them, I should glue myself to them, but I am just standing there. The mother is lingering, because that`s what they do. In that moment I understand that I am using them, I am just an imposter, and at the end I am deceiving myself. At that moment I recognize the real meaning of happiness, it`s not about running away, it`s about finding your home with a nice garden, a cat, a dog and your smell.

Sorry, do you know where I put my happiness? 

L. and K.

Shall we dance?

Like clouds without ending, we are moving following the wind. I don't want to go nowhere.
In a circle we are dancing, with the wind we are loosing our way.
No breath, just one step more, No breath, one step less.
I wanna live on a red roof, i wanna sleep while the ocean is singing, bring me where the waves are not ends
No Breath, just smile and one step more. No breath, just smile and one step less.

I am going to kiss you under the sound of this rock song because I don't want to wake up all the city,
I am going to bring you in the dance floor because I don't want to move  all the world.
I am going to dance with you under this bed because I don't want that all the universe will be jelaous of us.

I don't need the sun anymore, give more alcool because we are gonna to melt in this river to lose our way.
In this ocean, where there is no sun for us, as a black sheet  covers our thoughts, we stay with our smells,. We don't  need more.
No breath, just one step more. No breath, one step less.

Could you wait a minute?

You kiss me, I kiss her, we kiss each other, they kiss me.
I drink, you puke, I get high, you ask me more. I die.
Looking for something better inside your smoke, I lost myself in a dirty club.
Lonely with my drink, lonely with my fears, I try to switch off the music, but it hurts and you cry and I get high.

Looking for something better I lost my way but I don't want to came back anymore, who are you?
As water in the middle of a desert you give me your hand but I can't touch it, even if is the most beautiful thing that I have never had, I can't touch it; And you disappear.
Give me one more kiss, let me smell your tongue again, let me get high in your arms or just kill me, now and forever.

The time doesn't count anymore, days pass without a breath, You pass as wind on the ocean, but I kiss you, and you kiss Her and then we kiss each other.
I put a tent in this desert with no start and no end, even if I am free I don't have any place to go anymore but the starts are smiling to me while I am drinking your bottle.

Sorry, Could you tell me the way? I lost the time one minute's ago.

Jack

Jack is there, looking outside from a red roof while outside is raining, but he is not gonna move cause he doesn't have fear of the wind.
White as snow, looking the city that slowly is starting to melt as sugar under the rain.
I would like to be like you, I would like to not have fear of the wind and be distance from here, while slowly float over my thoughts, while slowly I am looking for you.
Lonely during the day, you look at me behind the glass, but I don't feel nothing just the noise of the storm, just the beat of a new day.
Please tell me the way, I will follow you without a word and we will loose over the ocean and then die under this grey sky.
Bring me you, now that I am free, now that I am as you.
The freedom without a way is just a word that can't fly in the sky.